Missing Someone You Never Knew

On Friday our world woke up to some terrible news – today is Monday and it’s still raw. I didn’t realize how hard losing Anthony Bourdain would be for me personally. I wasn’t his friend, though he felt like mine.

“You,” he said, “are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why you are in so much pain.”  – Emilie Autumn

Anthony Bourdain, I realize now, had an immense effect on who I am, the way I travel, how I try to see the world and the people who live in it. Kitchen Confidential was released when I was just finishing High School, but I didn’t read it until a number of years later when I was toiling away in the restaurant business. No it was No Reservations that originally captured me – the first season aired on the Travel Channel the year I relinquished living in Italy for the first time to come home and finish college. Tony’s view of the world, how he traveled, what and how he ate and drank, were all thinks that spoke to my soul. Experiencing the world through his eyes solidified so many of my life choices.
I sit here wishing that I had thanked him in some way while he was still with us, I wish that I had told him that he was my hero, my idol, my friend… His life on this earth was an enormous gift to us all, yet he must have felt so alone, I loved him and I will miss him dearly.

In honor of Tony – travel, don’t judge, get lost, be uncomfortable, walk in someone else’s shoes, raise your glass, share a meal, follow your passion, move, live, love, forgive, talk to each other… ask for help if you can, but more importantly, ask others if they need help because sometimes they can’t.IMG_3810

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